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Pressing re-start

There are a number of reasons for why pressing-restart is absolutely necessary. It has nothing to do with forgiveness. Nothing to do with deserving forgiveness, in fact, one could honestly admit that you have dragged me through the mud in ways that people who do not love me would. In my mind. You do not … Continue reading

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Marriage

Marriage is hard. There is no doubt about that statement. Anyone who says otherwise has never been married or is lying. It’s hard and it’s painful and it’s annoying. It’s a lot of negative mixed with a  lot of good. People can be terrible. Underdeveloped emotionally and unresponsive. It’s always a mystery to me how … Continue reading

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Happiness

I have not felt happiness in a while At least it’s been long enough To feel like a distant memory Everything feels like it’s compiling on one another And nothing feels quite “right” I crave alone time but in my loneliness I am busy, focusing on others I crave togetherness, but in togetherness, I reminded … Continue reading

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Lists of pros and cons

Relationships are very much like roller coasters. Mine is usually a low hanging one and has, of late, been filled with very little highs. There have always been things that bother me about my husband: his selfishness his refusal to learn how to listen his self absorption his utter lack of logic and common sense … Continue reading

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We Use To Dance

We use to dance We use to dance in tune with each other The synergy of our hopes and dreams matched We took on wicked tunes, uncertain winds, and stumbles with grace Lately, we’ve been dancing to a different tune Then I started dancing alone You use to wave at me as I danced Look … Continue reading

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Google

I can not begin to tell you how many days, hours, minutes I spent trying to understand why my partner thought in their own words “growth and knowing oneself” was not important. It was the constant excuse he’d use for why my growth was not important. He also, in so many words. Described to me, … Continue reading